To Take Or Not Too Take My Sleep Aid...

I guess I should have taken my as needed zyprexa last night! I am exhausted after another poor sleep. I was tired at bedtime and didn't want to dope myself up further. Then I went to bed at 10:30pm. I fell asleep OK but kept waking up. I woke up for good at like 6am. I take zyprexa as a sleep aid as needed but the last 2 times I have gotten out of bed the next morning and had a panic attack. A psychopharmacologist who works as a consultant with Jenn, my case-manager says that lithium has been known to interact with zyprexa! Since I'm taking lithium each night that's probably why. Some days after I take zyprexa I feel fine, even calm and relaxed, so I don't know...All I know is I'm exhausted and feel depressed today. This seems to be the norm for the past while. All I want to do is stay in my pj's all day (I did that yesterday) and stay home...I'm thinking a home based job is the best strategy for me until I get well. I can work from home, me thinks! No leads yet though. That's kind of a relief in itself because I am sure working will bring on much more anxiety and can I handle that? Even just a few hours a week?


Last evening when I went to go downstairs in the split-level house that Kerri and I share with Kerri's daughter hope. I came across this interesting cat scene...and of course had to take a picture! It would have been much cooler if Speckle was also on the stairs...cats don't seem to worry about being stepped on, lol...

Yesterday evening Kerri showed me a picture of our new landlord. She is actually an amazingly talented artist! Here is the link to read up about Rosie Somerville and to see her art. She has oils, acrylics, and watercolours. She gives her e-mail if anyone is interested in purchasing her work. She's amazing...she is also an art teacher in Ottawa.

http://home.primus.ca/~rosy.somerville/Index.htm

I use to love art in school...now I don't have the patience for it but maybe some day things will shift for me!